This is love.

Is this not the prettiest thing youve ever seen?
And yes, I JUST BOUGHT THEEEEEMMMMM \m/
Its from Rockport. My new favourite shoe store!
My mom didnt want to buy them at first but the salesman said that its limited and there wont be any repeats so, TADAA!
Welcome home, baby.
:')

But my mom didnt miss out either.
She bought these babies.
Thank god we're both the same size so I could steal them whenever.
MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

And the plus thing about it is:
ITS SO FREAKING COMFORTABLE!
Like you can ACTUALLY go shopping with it and not get tired.

Thank you, mommy.
I LOVE YOU :B

the happiest girl of the day,
lilyalyssa.

Just do it.

Halloween tomorrow.
I malas nak go to the party but someones gonna be there.
And I miss that someone.

I need to do some shopping.
<3

1still43,
lilyalyssa.

Now what?

AGAIN.
I f0und out something I did NOT want to find out.
I'm tired lah, for Gods sake!
First this, then that.
What next?

And it sucks so bad when I have no idea what to do.
It sucks gila-gila okay?
As long as I have someone to talk to about this, I'm fine.

I'm just so tired of convincing myself that everything would be fine soon. When Ive been convincing myself ever since we broke up.
I guess soon just isnt soon enough.

Its the freaking exam week and I'm crying my eyeballs out.
Wheepdeedoo.

you and I both,
loveD.

Saturday Butterflies

So yeah, I made a study plan.
Aaaaand it was a total PHAAAIIIILLLL!
Went to visit a cousin who was at the hospital. Dengue. :(
Then went to ou for dinner.
And now, I just got back.

SNIP BITS!
I was in the car otw to the Tropicana Hospital and I was reading some geo since I couldnt do it at home. And we stopped at a red light. A huge ass lorry was next to the car.
I got tired reading so I looked out the window, and the freaking lorry driver was STARING at me like literally and SMILED at me when I looked at him.
SWEAR TO GOD, PEDO GILA K?!
I returned to the geo textbook asap.
With eyes wide open and brain damaged.

And so, when I was at Seoul tadi for dinner.
I went up to get my favourite Mille Crepe Cake at Chocolate and when I passed by all the shops, my jaw dropped when I saw all the SALE signs at their windows.
And I cursed to myself since I left most of my money in my drawer at home.
Like the WHOLE shop was filled with the SALE sign.
I CANNOT WAIT TO BRING MY DAD OUT SOON.
(he's at Jakarta right now)

My brother came later to join us for dinner. And when I was about to go home with my mom and sister, my brother grabbed my hand as hard as possible and yanked me away with full force that I almost fell. We were walking towards the parking lot but then we decided to get some takoyaki.
And a monopoly game card. And we strolled around a pet store for a good half an hour and bought cat food. And walked a bit more. Bought some drinks. Then we went home.

I missed Erin's house warming tonight.
SO SORRRRYYYY :(
I datang jumpa you myself, since you live so near now!
She lives in a purple house now, NGEHE.
JUSTIN BIEBER FTW :D

A Satuday well-spent.
<3

whoever thought a day gone so wrong,
could turn out so lovely.
:)

Ay okay

So, I'm feeling better than I did last night and I think I'm so used to being upset, I guess I'm like, I dont know, immune to it now? Weeeell, that should be a good thing. :)

So, exams are in three days.
I have not made full preparations.
Hope I do soon. Maybe after I update this. And after I take a nap. And after I get something to eat.
OKAY, I NEED TO STUDY. -___-
So I shall. Since I'm not a failure. And will never be one.
I hope.

So many plans after exams. Just one week of hardcore studying, and I'll be fine. I'll be able to go out. I'll be able to do so many thingalingsss!
Then, stress again. PMR year. Whoopdy-fucking-doo.
Nevertheless, I shall enjoy a month plus and hope I dont be such a lifeless bugger at home, fingers crossed!


So wish me luck.
For exams.
For love.
For life.

youre missing out.
over and out.

Black and white lies

Every single fucking time I fucking feel fucking okay, something just has to fucking happen.
Now I feel so fucking upset.
You fucking lied to me.
You fucking broke your promise.
You broke my fucking heart...
Once again and without fail.

Well, people.
I guess that one particular rumor I heard about him is really true.
*sigh* *shrugs*

But dude, what's with your lies?
Youve hurt me bad, REAL bad during the breakup and you think I'm not having a hard time letting you go? You say you dont think youve moved on, then what are you doing to her?
Aren't you hurting her too? I'm just so dissapointed in you, yknow? I thought you'd knew better.
I just thought you were better.

But somehow, no matter what.
I will be there for you.

Yes, I'm stupid. Thengs.
But its true. And I stand my ground.

you feel like your able to live past the moment,
you can't move on.

Mellow Little Fellow

No worries, my lovely bugs.
I'm doing just fine.

I know everyone has their rough times.
And right now, I think I can see the rainbow.
No matter what, it will rain sometimes.
But for now,
I smile.

:)

ryanbandong,
ismine.

Stop it already.

I fucking hate you.
but I'm so in love with you.

Why did you send that to me? Why did you trigger my emotions again?

I'm sick la k? Sick of crying. Sick of getting so pissed. Sick of being confused.
I'm not that girl. I'm better.
But with you messing around with my head, I cant freaking move on.
I WANT TO MOVE ON.
but you just make it impossible.

And to make things worst, I keep replaying the video. I cant seem to close the window.
Its like its the closest thing I have to you right now.
Ugh, someone help me.

Right now, I'm just hoping for a brighter tomorrow.
I reserved a hug from my amoi (What would I do without you, Abigail). I couldnt really tell her what happened cause my mom started being pissy at me and paksa'd me to study. Which made me even more pissed.
Therefore, easily tearful.

Ugh. I dont know what to do anymore.

hangingon,
your alyssa.

Oh dearest Thursday

THANK YOU VERY THE MUCHO, AIDA SOFIA FOR THE DELICIOSO MUFFIN! :D
Sayang youuuuu.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

So tadi, I walked home.
There was a green car ahead of me. The driver looked at me (he had his window down), winked and said
"Hey, I love you."
Then he drove off laughing with his bunch of friends. And I gave them the wtf face.
As he drove off, the rest of his friends just stared at me while laughing.
I swear to god, if I didnt have a book in my hand, I wouldve shown them the finger. But then again, they mightve done a U-turn and kidnaprape me. Sooo, yeaah.
Better pissed than raped? -__________________-'

douchebaggery,
lilyalyssa.

Think

I dont like it how I constantly get emo when I'm online. Its just that somehow thered be something out there that just upsets me.

I'm just so sad here.
But why am I so happy when I'm out and about?
Would you say I'm .. well .. A two-faced?

Or is it just me lacking oxygen in my room so I get a little teary eyed? -__-
Ugh.

Letting you go might be the best thing to do right now but I keep hurting myself by holding on to you. A dream.
I guess I really am a Silly Lily. :/


Thank you, my beloved retards for always making me smile everyday.
Abigail Lim Shu Yee.
Farah Aina Jeffry.
Ilie Arisha Ashraff.
Anis Yazmin Mohd Khairi.
Carmen Lau Jia Mei.
Alicia Ang Xia Yi.
What kind of mentally disordered child would I be without you guys?
I love you. :')

peace,
lilyalyssa.

10th October 2010

After a long time, I got the chance to see him again.
He smiled at me and I smiled back.
He asked me if I was doing okay and I nodded.
Then the words came out instantly out of me and I started saying :

"I miss you so much. Your texts, your smile, the way you say 'I love you.', I miss the way we were before... "

He hugged me tight and tells me that he feels the same way.
And then ...

I woke up.
:'/

*sigh.* I hate this.
Where's that shoulder I could cry on?

sunday,
alyssa.

The First Lady Summit

So get this.

I was invited last Thursday to read a pledge infront of all the first lady from around the world.
It was kinda weird cause why pick me lah kan?
So apparently, the organizer's organization doesnt have any malays in it. So, they want me.
-____________________-'

Then today, she called my mom to tell her that I wouldnt need to read the pledge anymore because they want only one person to read it. (Not being racist or anything) And I'm pretty sure that person is not a malay. What an ass.
But they still want me there to go up the stage and stand next to him/her. And I thought HELL NO. I'm not gonna be freaking accessory. I rather go to school la k?
Dahla the PM wants a malay, chinese and indian on the stage to read the pledge. Padan muka. Where's your malay now?
And you know, she (the organizer) told me that she hated the 1 Malaysia thing. And I was like "thaffark?!"

Ugh, whatever la k?
Politics isn't even my thing.
But it wouldve looked so good in my CV.
*sigh.*

I'll make it look good some other way,
lilyalyssa.

:)))))))

I like you.
Again.
But somehow, I dont wanna be yours.
Maybe just friends with benefits.
;)

I missssssssssssssss you.
HEHEHEHE, I want you to sweep me off of my feeeeeeet!
I just wanna be near youuuuuu.
And peng youuuu, I know you do too!
*keningkening*

GRENADETOWEREPICDANIELPIEVAMPIRE!
<3 :)

lilyalyssalilyalyssalilyalyssalilyalyssalilyalyssalilyalyssalilyalyssalilyalyssalilyalyssa

AND OH to the MY to the GOOOD,

HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY TO MY DEAREST
ANIS YAZMIN AND AMMAR HARITH.

Holy geez Louise! Its been a freaking year ALREADY?! AHHHH :3

Hikhik, if you dont mind I stole this picture, Anis!

Hope the both of you would last longer and longer and longer and longer! I love the both of you very, very muchoo. Like ohmygod, I am feeling so happy right now.
HEHEHEHEHEHE.

So jeles lah of them two <3 :')

Life. How mysterious.
How beautiful.
:)

Difference

I was reminiscing with my sister and mama yesterday night. And we laughed and laughed and laughed.
Then I came across an album.

My 6th Birthday Party.

I went through and I saw this boy.
This boy who was my bestest friend in the whole wide world at that time.
He lived at the same row as I did.
He always came over to my place and we'd just play and talk and have so much fun.
Then he just stopped coming.
He moved.
And he didnt say goodbye.

Where the fuck are you?
I dont even remember your name.
Why did we just suddenly lose all contact?

But I'll find you.
I hope you still remember me, douche.
Cause dude, I had a tiny crush on you! HAHAHAHAHA.
You were so cute lah.

I miss you.
<3 :)

lilyalyssmiorazri

How the lion loved the lamb

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