you make me feel weak,

These doubts are coming back to me and they're taunting me. Daring me to do what I know I'd regret. I deserve more.

Better. Worthy.

Don't you want me as much as I want you?

God, gimme the strength to face all challanges. Amin.

Somewhere only we know.

"Trying to see you hasn't been easy lately. There's been this period where things seems harder as we stay together things are changing, always. I'm just here to tell you no matter how bad I'll fail you and make you cry or hurt your feelings, always look at it like an adult. There's time you need to ignore rude things that I will say and time that I'll do things to hurt you but always believe that there must be a reason why I'm still here."

I'll never stop believing. Sometimes you're just a stupid drama king who irritate me by being angry at me.

I miss you. Maybe that's why we've both been going crazy. The absence of each other's.

Well, whatever it is, I still like you a lot, dckw.

Oh and um, just to make it clear.

DANIEL AND I HAVE A STRONG RELATIONSHIP THAT WE ARE BOTH VERY HAPPY TO BE IN. I just tend to blog when I'm sad/annoyed/pissed/depressed.

Hahahahhahahahhahaahahahahah. Love ya'll ^^V
I sound crazy. Gila moodswing. Gonna annoy Daniel til he wakes up with the urge to punch my face. Nyahahahahaahahahhaha! Sangat suka cari pasal!

Dear you,

What is wrong with you? Everynight there is bound to be something wrong. Something to be angry at me about. Must I feel like shit every single night now? Is it a routine for you to crush my insides before you sleep? And still. I'm so so so stupid to still have these feelings for you. Why is it so hard to see me happy? Don't you want me to be happy?

I'm so insanely in love with you. I still get butterflies when I see you. Like an obsessed fangirl. But maybe you'd realize me if I'd stop showing signs that I am one? I don't know how to reach out to you without hurting myself. You're such an asshole. I'm so frustrated cause I can never figure you out! I don't know you. I never did. Is this how relationships work? Aren't we supposed to cherish and love one another? Know exactly how to calm the opposite down? Make her feel like she's in the sky? Reaching the orbit, probably? I feel so clingy. It makes me feel like shit. I know you love me. I am so fucking sure of it. But can't you at least tell me that once in a while? Ni kene paksa. I mean, come on.

I just don't want our story to end. You can be such an asshole but what can I do? I'm head over heels for you. You've got swag that I can't find on anyone else. You're... You!

I really really like you, sayang. Please put up with this childish bitch. She will always be there for you to lean on. <3