Going through a rough phase with my boo. But our love will march on and we will walk hand-in-hand and defeat these hard times. I love you. I always will. :*

Dear daniel choo kok weng,

I love you because .....

your laugh is unique.

the way you bite your lips is sexy.

you smell delicious.

your smile makes me giddy inside.

your fingers intertwine perfectly with mine.

it feels as if a huge blanket is covering me when you hug me.

the sound of your heartbeat is addictive.

you drive like a maniac yet I still feel safe when we hold hands.

your so different.

you dont mind me being ugly.

you remember the things I tell you.

you open up my eyes to the world.

you make me feel special.

I felt a spark when we first met.

I still feel the spark.

you brighten up my day.

you complete me. (I know, so cliche. Fuck ya'll.)

you accept me.

Actually, I dont need any reason. I love you because I just do. I dont know why. Should there be a reason why? I just love you. I fucking love you. You just make me wanna jump and shout the craziest things. I feel like everything's possible. It's like you're all I need. I love this feeling I feel whenever I'm around you. I'm so comfortable around you. I dont need to act.

If you'll do your part, and I do mine. I swear, we'll make dreams come true.

XO

i wont blog about it.

So sick of being upset.

That rainy sunday night with my favourite yellow pajama pants and pink hoodie.

The night still plays in my head.

I remember every detail. Every sight. Every breath. Every touch.

For someone with really bad memory, my brain seems to not want to let this part of memory die.

Let it live on.

while I make more

to the last breath

This time around last year, I was in the most devastating and depressing state of mind. Ever. PERIOD. Yup. The start of all my emo posts. Heartbreaking. Still is when I think about it. You can never erase it. Always in the back of my mind, appearing once in a while when I'm at my most vulnerable moment. Sometimes I have to remind myself that a person is capable of literally crushing my soul with words. Dont ever let my feelings get the best of me. But hey, I'm just human.

I love.

I break.

I pick up the pieces.

Glue them together.

And I love again with all the cracks hoping for bliss.

Alhamdulillah.

Can I just pause and embrace it all. I have everything at the moment. I have never been happier. My parents, unicorns, narwhals and him. Just please, please, stay and last forever.

And he calls me cute in this.............................................................................

Ok

Lily, you're stupid.

Was so close to posting something up on Tumblr.

Then I decided not to. For my own good.

An emotional train wreck.

Youre the only one capable of doing this to me.

Clingy

Because maybe you're not constant. And I'm the type of person who needs consistency in this particular matter. You are who you are & I can never change that. I respect you. I need you.