We are NOT a mistake. (Or that's how I see us)

I've been in such a wreck. I am exhausted. Feeling really, really dead. And to have the one you love most anger you is frustrating. Especially how he seems to be ignorant of my anger and jealousy, he leaves me be. I am a girl in need, we are all in need, and this girl just needs her man to whisper sweet words to her and leave a trace of imaginary kisses on her cheeks while they talk through the phone. I need a dose of you in my life. You are a drug and I am addicted.

God know's how much love I have for you. I stayed by you because I love you. Because I thought we would be worth it. It's just recently how you've been so fucking.. UGH! And this is what I get. My anger towards you causes you to be angry at me. I crave for the day where you would calm me down. It's always me doing it for myself. It's as if you can't accept this bad side of me. Well, at least that's what I tell myself because I am afraid of losing you. But heyyyyy, what do you know? Again it has happened.

Come back to me, sayang. We're so much better than this.
I hate it when you're angry at me and I absolutely hate missing you.

Much love,
Lily.

I can never get enough of you. I don't know what you do to me. There's like this invisible magnetic force between us. Oh god I fucking love you, boy. I love everything about you. Thank you for being a part of my life. There would never be enough thank you's and I love you's for you.

I care about you.

Strip me down to my bones

Where do I begin?

You, who have touched my heart so dearly. You, the reason behind my smile. You, funny boy you. You have yet to realize how much you mean to me. This poor fucked up soul deserving nothing of you. You've been so loyal and amazing. I'm sorry to be such a fuck up. I have done things I am not proud of. So many regrets. You have no idea how painful it is to know how messed up you are in the head. You hurt everyone around you. You become so self-absorbed, it's ridiculous. I'm sorry to have disappointed you. Even I thought I was better than that. Who was I kidding? I've never been a good person to start with.

Before we start talking crazy, saying things we'll regret. Why don't we slow it down and press reset? I don't know what will happen from now onwards. As much as I don't deserve it, please trust me. Everything I said to you was the truth. You've got me begging on my knees. Being accused is just... I have no words for it. It's something no one has to go through. I'm so sorry. Please just forgive me. Forgive me for making you doubt my love for you. Forgive me for being so stupid. Forgive me for being so inconsiderate.

Please don't let us end here. I beg you for a second chance.
Let it be beautiful.

Please, forgive me.

Cheers.

He was everything I asked for even when I wasn't asking for anything at all. A surprise out of the blue. Such an amazing man with such an honest soul. Who speaks the truth and always faithful. Time flies so fast and I'm sure it'll fly equally as fast until the day we can finally be one again. It was hard for me to grasp but every word you said was true. I was just ignorant. So ignorant. And selfish. I admire your responsibility. How strong you are. How calm, cool and collected as you always are. I would give you the world to show you how you've impacted my life. You will always carry a piece of my heart with you and that's most I can give. "Now's not the time, not the place". I pray for one in the future. I will move on for you. I will be strong for you. And I will grow. But my love for you will always be as strong as it ever was, if not, stronger. I have learnt so much from you. I cannot express my gratitude towards you. Never enough. For you have been my guru, lover and saviour. Life will go on and I'll continue smiling. We both saw this coming and with open hearts and open minds, we accept. InsyaAllah, we will meet again. I love you, Daniel.

It hurts so much to relive the pain from the past. I love you so much. :'/

I know you're afraid but sayang, we'll get through this. Just don't let go of me.

Cheers to the forever we promised to.

The people keeping me sane.

I am in a complete wreck. My life is like a glass mirror cracking and it's in a state so fragile. I miss the yesterdays. I miss feeling so at free. I miss not having a care in the world. I miss my chubby, farah and abigail. Stupid farah. Stupid abigail. Especially abigail. I'm still not used to the fact I dont see your face every day, after 10 years. Stupid girl. GirlS!
But who would deny how much I crave for my daniel? I miss you so much. My mind wanders off to our sweetest memories whenever it goes idle. The first time we met is by far my favourite. The cold, drizzling night. The butterflies in my stomach making my whole body shake with excitement, fear and a sense of fondness for you. The night went by so magically. So unreal.

I've never met someone like you. You grasp my heart in a manner I just melt with every word you say. I want you in my life in whatever way from this time to eternity. For now, be mine. Stick with me until the impossible tears us apart. I miss you, boo. I miss you, sayang. I miss you, edward. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. And I feel so miserable how I can't do anything about it. So fucking miserable.

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Oh hi Aida

The way you make me feel like shit is amazing. You are amazing. Let's have a round of applause for Mr. Amazing. Great job. Keep up the good work.