a cycle

I am by the beach,

Soaking in the sunlight, beaming bright as can be,

The warm sand tickles my feet,

Leaving imprints or clinging on me,

And as much as I shake, it won't get off of me, 

Get off of me, 

The sea swallows me and rids me of thee,

But I gasp for air, and that's when I realise 

I'm in despair.

I am on the ocean floor,

Dark, cold, and empty,

These feelings consume me,

Eating me up inside and demanding a reason why, 

Frustration builds, exhaustion nears,

I can't fucking stand this saltiness,

seeping in through the corners of my lips,

So I wait,

I wait until I fall into abyss,

So I no longer have to feel like this.