so i've been told

i have made an ay-mah-zing plan!

i will make him hate me.

when he hates me, he won't look at me. when he hates me, we wont smile to each other. when he hates me, we wont talk to eachother. when he hates me, we wont hug anymore. when he hates me, i will stop falling for him.
i have to stop falling for him. i will stop falling for him.

but

when he hates me, i'll miss him smiling at me. when he hates me, i'll miss his comfortable hugs that makes me feel safe. when he hates me, i'll miss how our eyes accidently meet. when he hates me, i'll miss the constant "Hey". when he hates me, i'll cry.
i'd feel like crap and cry. i'd regret and cry.
but i musn't feel like crap nor regret nor cry.
i must stop loving him. and be strong about it.

but will letting him go worth the tears?

shiatsu,
lovesickLILY.